Lisa Snowdon: I felt responsible for jealousy when individuals advised me they have been pregnant
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isa Snowdon has spoken in regards to the guilt she felt when she skilled jealousy after individuals she knew fell pregnant as she struggled along with her personal fertility.
The 51-year-old mannequin and TV presenter stated the sentiments grew to become stronger after she suffered a miscarriage.
Snowdon, who has additionally spoken brazenly about terminating a being pregnant, stated she has labored laborious to seek out contentment in a life that didn’t contain motherhood.
She advised ITV’s Good Morning Britain: “It’s such a horrible emotion to feel, to admit to – jealousy, envy, all of those things.
“I felt guilty. And I felt shame for feeling like that. But, you know, unless you haven’t become a mum or or you’ve been trying to, you don’t realise that feeling, that little pang of sadness (when people tell you they are pregnant).
“This was a stronger emotion for me after I miscarried in my early 40s. So, when that happened, it took me a few years to really come to terms with the fact this isn’t going to be for me in this lifetime.
“But that didn’t stop me from feeling that little pang of sadness.”
Snowdon, who’s engaged to former mannequin George Smart, stated she needed to deal with her life past and away from her mission to change into a mom.
She advised GMB: “It’s just trying to dig deep and say ‘My life hasn’t worked how I imagined it. But let’s reframe it, what is positive around me? What do I love in my life? Who have I got in my life that I’m happy to be with, happy to be around?’ and it’s just about trying to kind of change that thought process.
“Because if I was still in mourning for the child that I lost – I also terminated a child – I would never be content with what I’m doing, I would just have this sadness around me all the time.
“And I had to pick myself up and just be focused and look around and be grateful for what I actually do have.”
Snowdon, who has written a e-book referred to as Just Getting Started: Lessons In Life, Love And Menopause, additionally spoke about her struggles with perimenopause, when her physique began transitioning into menopause, triggering a bunch of bodily and emotional signs.
Paying tribute to her associate, she stated: “He’s been put through … his paces, basically.
“When we got we introduced to each other, unbeknownst to both of us, I was literally starting my perimenopause.
“So I would have these moods, these rages, these outbursts out of the blue.
“We’re having a lovely day, and then all of a sudden a red mist would just descend, and I just couldn’t control it.
“And it was nothing he’d done, it was just the anger in my body.
“And I do openly talk about all these sorts of things that do happen to us ladies, and we don’t recognise ourselves.
“It’s really out of character for a lot of us and our hormones have done that our whole lives, whether it’s our monthly cycle, whether it’s those chocolate cravings, whether it’s that sadness.”