V presenter Rylan Clark has stated he couldn't gown, sleep, eat or converse following his break up from husband Dan Neal.
Clark, 34, who discovered fame on The X Factor in 2012, revealed he had handled suicidal ideas when his marriage broke down and stated that he stopped having the ability to converse correctly for 2 weeks.
Speaking to musician Matt Willis on his podcast, On The Mend, Clark stated: “My marriage ended and I didn’t know it would end and I felt like everything was my fault and I felt like, right, but this is salvageable, I can sort this out…
“I’m the fixer, that’s what I always do, and all of a sudden I couldn’t fix something and it’s confusing me because I was like, but that’s not right.”
He went on: “I can’t remember what made me disappear, basically, from the person I knew, but the next thing I knew, I could not see, hear, eat, breathe, sleep, I couldn’t do anything.”
Clark, who stands at round 6ft 4in, talked about that his weight dropped to 9 stone and stated that he couldn't string a sentence collectively.
He stated: “It was like I’d had a stroke and my mum thought I was having a stroke…
“I just got into this dark hole where I thought I was crazy because nothing was making sense to me and partly that was because of upset and heartbreak, but at the same time, the situation, with what I was being told, I thought I was going mad, I thought I was making things up.”
I'm so, so sturdy, however I used to be so damaged, to the purpose the place I bodily could not gown, I could not eat
Clark added: “I’m so strong. I’m so, so strong, but I was so broken, to the point where I physically couldn’t dress, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t do none of these things.
“I tried to end it a few times, unsuccessfully, gratefully now, but I just remember going to sleep at night, after doing nothing all day, living at my mum’s, frightened to leave the house, didn’t want anyone to see me.”
Reflecting on the state of affairs, Clark stated that he can look again now and be glad about what he went by means of.
He informed Willis: “I would never let myself get like that again.”
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